2016.08.07_The Church with the Key of Heaven

The hope of my whole life, before I leave this world is to do something that will leave a lasting impression. Since the wisdom given to me is not my own, I have to leave it behind in this world, and since the knowledge that I have is not my own, I want to leave it with the world. Just as a tree is supposed to make another grow by its fruit in spite of being cut down by a logger, if I misunderstand what I have been given as my own, all the people in the world will become useless.

A good idea is a great contribution and asset for human beings. That is why I write books about what I believe. I am willing to write in my books what I cannot speak due to insufficient time. Even on the day when my flesh is worn out and my end is coming, I am filled with the spirit that I must not throw away, what I have worked on and strive towards.

A Buddhist monk left a will that said, based on his ‘non-possessive’ thought, that he wanted to abolish all of his published books and stop publishing, but I have different view. Although I have no possessions, I want to consider what I have as an asset for human beings. The monk had thoughts of nihilism or self-abolishment, but I only want to live according to God’s will. While God wants me to have no possessions, He also strongly wants me to be a beneficial person for the world, thus allowing me to make disciples and leave them in the world; so I will follow his will.

When I leave the world, I will have no possessions. However, as I leave sufficient wisdom and experiences in the world, I have no wonder that more and more disciples will build a greater belief on that foundation. Deciding the time when I leave the world is not my task, but God’s own task, so I am only praising His glory.

Even if one exists in the world, but without his or her own piece of work, it is just self-abuse. When a grain of wheat falls to the ground its body dies, decays, and disappears. However, from it a bud sprouts and grows to become a tall tree, thereby composing a forest. I want to be a good seed and strongly want the seed to die and grow to be a tall tree. Thus what I want and pray for is be a good seed. Not being an insignificant seed that a bird eats, but being a great tree, I want to be born again as a pillar of the temple.

Since I firmly believe in the promise of the Lord, I have entrusted my life to the promise. I want to live with all my will and all my soul and with all my strength. Since I am not my own, but the Lord’s, He can make anything from me as He wants to, if He wants.